by S.L. Jennings
Genre: New Adult/Contemporary Romance
Published on: 5/26/15
I’d like to tell you that I’m ok.
That the meaningless sex with countless women has somehow numbed the pain. That it’s deciphered the constant confusion in my head. Eased the self-hatred that sinks into my gut every time I look in the mirror.
I’d like to tell you that time heals all wounds.
That we evolve and grow into well-adjusted, stable adults, set on a path to right the world’s wrongs. That we are not our past…we are not our pain.
I want to tell you all those things. Hell, I want to believe all those things. But I’d be lying. I’m good at that. Living a lie is the only way I truly know how to survive.
But the day I saw her, I stopped surviving. I stopped existing. And for the first time in 24 years, I started living.
She brought me back to life. Set me free and sent my soul soaring. Made this useless shell of a man feel like…something. Something whole and real and good.
She saved me.
Although she believes I wasn’t even worth saving.
My Rating: 5 Coffee Cups!!
S.L. Jennings does it again. Seriously. If you've read anything by her you know that this woman knows exactly where the strings of your heart exist and knows exactly how to tug on them for maximum effect. I LOVED Fear of Falling. It was one of my top 5 reads of 2013 when it came out. And while reading Kami's story, as invested as I was with her and Blaine (and I was VERY invested) I gave a little piece of my heart away to Dom really really hoped that he would get his own story.
Oh quick side note- Although this is Dom's story it also keeps you fully in the loop with Kami and Blaine's happy ending. It serves as a background to what is going on in Dom's life. And with how intertwined he, Kami and Angel are it's really no surprise.
Back to my current obsession.
Dominic Trevino is a beautiful, caring, confused, broken man. Taken advantage of at a young age by a man who was supposed to love and care for him, his concept of what love is supposed to be was intensely and irrevocably altered. When it goes into detail about what exactly his uncle did to him, my heart shatters. Dom is such a strong friend to both Kami and Angel and to read what was done to him it strikes a chord with me. He's been their rock, so to see the anguish and struggle he deals with on a daily basis guts you. But he goes through the motions the only way he knows how, usually with a lot of meaningless sex with a lot of meaningless women. Most of which he picked up at the local strip club.
Enter Raven West. Literally. He first sees Raven waitressing at said strip club and makes quite the impression. That impression being intense and immediate hate on sight. She despises him and it only took her mere moments. And then enter Raven again. This time through the doors of his child mentoring job. With a young boy with selective mute-ism. Oh and have I mentioned she has a little secret she's keeping about our Dom?
This story takes you through Dom and Raven's emotional roller coaster. Mostly Dom's. He has so many issues with rejection and fear and love that he needs to work through and it seems as though Raven is just who and what he needs. She unintentionally hurts him on more than one occasion (which upsets me. Fictional character or not, I am very protective of him) but it only helps him to discover how to become the man he is meant to be. He needs the hurt to learn and grow and come out of hiding so to speak. He needed to face his demons head on to know that he is strong enough to conquer them. To know that he is not the broken young boy his uncle created.
As cliched as this will sound, I laughed, I cried, I public ugly cried and then I immediately emailed S.L. Jennings thanking her for taking me on these character's journeys. It is that wonderful of a story.
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